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May 2016<\/p>\nMay 2016<\/p>\n
Whenever I struggle and get stressed I can fall back into old patterns that hang on the framework of self-protection and self-reliance. I find myself fighting to make it on my own with this insane streak of I have to do \u201cit\u201d on my own! My focus this month is going to nurture my relationship with the only reliable source of strength \u2013 my heavenly Father. What does it mean to abide and what would it be like to live with that focus for the month?<\/p>\n
I can so bury myself in analysis paralysis creating unnecessary confusion and then decide that I don\u2019t know how to move out of wonky head space. Reality \u2013 God is on his throne all the time! His greatest command has never changed – God has called me first and foremost to love him and then love others. And still on this journey, I can find myself believing that I \u201cneed\u201d someone else to ____________ (fill in the blank).<\/p>\n
Most days, I know I am smart, determined, capable, and usually likeable. And like other ladies I know – I can struggle with doing what I know I can when the motivation is because I want to or its good for me and my family.<\/p>\n
I can\u2019t be the only one that will bend over backwards turning myself inside out to love, serve and support the ease, comfort or rise to the top of others; however, I don\u2019t understand what is going on in my head, my heart, or my beliefs when why I sell my own dreams short. I\u2019d hate to imagine a world that I somehow lost my ability to dream?<\/p>\n
Psalm 91:14-16 The Message ~<\/p>\n
\u201cIf you\u2019ll hold on to me for dear life,\u201d says\u00a0God,
\n\u201cI\u2019ll get you out of any trouble.
\nI\u2019ll give you the best of care
\nif you\u2019ll only get to know and trust me.
\nCall me and I\u2019ll answer, be at your side in bad times;
\nI\u2019ll rescue you, then throw you a party.
\nI\u2019ll give you a long life,
\ngive you a long drink of salvation!\u201d<\/p><\/blockquote>\nI choose to trust God regardless of my circumstances. You are a God that is in the details and this month \u2013 I will invite you into the details. I pray that intentionally growing closer to you in the coming month, you will teach me how to follow, submit, or surrender to you in all areas of my life. Remind me the truth of who I am and let me only hear your voice in the quiet and through the believers in my world. Give me the ability to fully feel the comfort that is beyond anything this world can offer and comes only from being close to you. Help me see beyond today into the works you planned for me long ago.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
May 2016 Whenever I struggle and get stressed I can fall back into old patterns that hang on the framework of self-protection and self-reliance. I find myself fighting to make it on my own with this insane streak of I have to do \u201cit\u201d on my own! My focus this month is going to nurture … <\/p>\n